If part of becoming at 30 was noticing myself again, the next part was understanding who I’m being shaped into.

And if I’m honest…

I feel like God is shaping me into the woman I was always meant to be.

Not a perfect woman. Not a loud woman.

But a woman who leads with:

• kindness

• patience

• understanding

• and a light that refuses to die

There has always been a light in me — one the enemy has tried to extinguish many times. But I’m realizing now: I am not meant to be kept in darkness.

My light is the kind that finds cracks.

The kind that slips through where shadows try to hold steady.

The kind that returns even when it’s been dimmed.

The Calling on My Light

When I asked myself why God placed this light inside me, the answer came with clarity:

My light is meant to help others see love in themselves. Not earthly love. Not romantic love. Not human approval.

But the God-given love they were created with.

That’s the kind of love that can’t be manufactured.

It can’t be taken away.

It doesn’t depend on who stayed or who left.

It doesn’t shrink under rejection.

It doesn’t disappear in loneliness.

It’s the love God placed within each of us — and somehow, my journey is becoming a reminder to others that the love they’ve been searching for was already inside them.

This Is Ministry Without a Title

I used to think ministry meant a platform or a pulpit.

But now I see that God uses people as mirrors long before He uses them as messengers.

My story — the quiet moments, the withdrawals, the healing, the returning — is becoming a mirror for others who forgot their own reflection.

My light doesn’t point toward me.

It points through me.

Toward God.

Toward love.

Toward the truth buried in someone else’s spirit.

Still Becoming

I won’t pretend I’ve arrived.

Becoming is not a landing place — it’s a posture.

It’s the willingness to keep growing, keep surrendering, keep choosing alignment even when you don’t fully understand where God is taking you.

But one thing I know for sure:

This year didn’t just bless me.

It revealed me.

It showed me who I’m becoming — and who I’ve always been in God’s eyes.

And as I step into a new year, I’m carrying this truth with me:

“The light in me awakens divine love in others.”

That is my calling.

My becoming.

My blessing.

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As this year comes to a close, I’m choosing to honor the very thing God has been teaching me — presence.

I’ll be taking a short break from posting until January 13th, not out of exhaustion, but out of intention. I want to be fully present with my family, grounded in gratitude, and attentive to the quiet moments that don’t need to be shared to be sacred.

This pause is part of my becoming too. Rest is not a retreat from purpose — it’s preparation for what’s next.

I have so many meaningful things planned for 2026, and I can’t wait to continue this journey with you in the new year. But for now, I hope you give yourself permission to slow down. To be present. To reflect. To rest. To love yourself well in this in-between space.

Thank you for walking alongside me this year — for reading, reflecting, and becoming with me. May this season meet you gently, and may the light within you be nurtured in the quiet.

I’ll see you again soon. 🤍